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Sunday, July 27, 2008 ( @ 7:28 PM ) The day started pretty okay, with me watching bits of troy when i woke up. Then it was on to church in my yellow ACJC collegiate shirt. Today's speaker at YM was this German-American guy called Gunther Mueller, when i saw him, i knew it was going to be a fun sermon. So he basically told us about his life and how he became what he was today. It was pretty interesting. But the interesting thing happened later. You know how sometimes at these christian concerts, or evangelical conferences, they ask people to go up front to reaffirm their faith, refocus their life, or if you havent already, accept christ. Well today was another one of those days for me, don't get me wrong, as i've said earlier in this post, i always "gave up" my life, but somehow or another i always fell back. Okay, so yeah, okay.. we were sitting on the ground (me and my CG) and there was this invitation at the end of the sermon, for people to come forward and reaffirm and refocus their lives. Well, i wanted to, i wanted so badly, but so many thoughts came rushing into my head, like "what if i fall back again?" "why is there no one else going there?it'll be embarrassing if i go up myself" In the end i thought to myself, this is my one chance, i can do it. But my body just wouldnt move, i wanted to. but i couldn't. then i thought, maybe after the whole thing i could go up to him and talk to him. But then, after the closing song(which was amazing love), he opened up another chance again, for people to come forward and pray. Then i waited again, cos i went through a brief moment of thought again, like "it'd be so embarrassing if i went up" But then, they kept on singing the song "amazing love" and this part of the song struck me, it went "amazing love, how can it be? that you my king would die for me?" Then the words just went inside me, and i thought, "WOW, God gave his only Son for me, and Jesus died for us. Yet I, a common man, couldn't even just walk to the front stage and do it." And so it was, i walked right up and knelt down. Soon, 2 hands touched my shoulders and 2 people started praying, one of them was Gunther himself and i wanted to thank him, but after the whole i felt so weird. Anyways, I knelt down, and maybe some of you know, kneeling is not exactly the most comfortable position to be in, soon, my muscles started cramping up, my legs were totally folded, so my calf muscles were dying, but then, for a moment when Gunther was praying to me about me taking that step again, the pain just sort of went away and i just knelt there longer. Oh and, i dont know why, but i was shaking also while i was praying, maybe it was because i wanted God so much, i wanted His love, and i wanted to repay His love, but up till now i dont know how. Anyway, i was shaking and my hands were clasp very tight. I almost cried i think. I feel, that of all the times when i said in my heart that i wanted God and Jesus in my life, of all the times i went up was because my friends did so too, of all the times i went up because i wanted to be an example to another friend..this time, this time it was real, i wanted God the most, i did it for myself, i didn't do it to impress anyone, i didn't do it to show people i'm a man, i did it for myself. All this is true, it happened to me, Lukas Marc Lee, on the 27th of July 2008, at 11.00 AM. After they prayed for me, i wanted to get up cos my muscles were dying, but i couldnt seem to stand up, instead i just kept on kneeling down and i just couldnt seem to get up, my mind was clear, i knew what i wanted. When pastor Alvin gave an invitation to the crowd to those who wanted prayer, for those who wanted something (sorry i can't remember). He split the congregation into 2, i went to 1 group. But that wasn't really anything. When i finally stood up, i felt so good, i felt so new. I felt very clear and light. Other than the pins and needles in my leg, i felt very good. And this time, i will not fall back, i will love God with all my heart. I will not stray. I will not allow myself to be influenced by my friends but rather I will influence my friends.I know what i must do. Oh and, to tell you something funny, i was shaking as i was typing this. Okay, on a less spiritual note, i finished my physics! haha, or at least i think i did. No tuition today cos gary cancelled it (no surprise). Oh and, the verse for next month has been decided, i shall tell it now though its abit early... I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galations 2:20 I picked this verse because, i think it has all the relevance to me today. in fact, it wont be my monthly verse, it will be my verse forever. To those reading this blog and to those who know me. I have changed today, i may not be the guy i used to be. Please, do not make me fall back. Once again...I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galations 2:20 0 comments |