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The child Age: 18 School: ACJC Birthday: 11/02/1991 About you: I'm just a guy, looking for answers. previous posts Well, this will be my last post before i enter NS.... I heard once that stars represent Suns of differen... Whew, just finished trekking through Macritchie Tr... Some interesting stuffs i saw today. Firstly, a me... So... Last nights/This mornings ride was pretty aw... Night cycling till 4am or so later... should be in... K, it's been 1 month plus since i last updated, an... So uh, went out with some mates yesterday, really ... UPDATE!!!With A levels over... i can finally... BA... past April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 April 2010 links Adeline Adin Amanda Amiel Cassandra Daniel Duncan Edwin Huilun IanHo I-Ming James Jeanette Jonathan Joy Kelvin Ken KinCheng Meiqi Michael Chee Michelle LiuMei Lynette Minhui Paul QiaoHui ShunQi Stella Teresa Vivian Weijie Wenhui Yawen Zhong Xiao Zixin
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Thursday, January 29, 2009 ( @ 10:44 PM ) Oh wells. Time to buckle down and study for A's, no time to think about anyone or anything else anymore. i'll see if i can pull it off 0 comments Monday, January 26, 2009 ( @ 11:03 PM ) 1) I am unable to do bad/immoral things without having second thoughts about it, and if i have done it'll prick my conscience like mad. 2) There is only 1 person in this world and in my life that i cannot harbor dislike against for more than 1 hour, this person is not related to me. 3) I am still unsure of what i want to do in life. 4) I am currently not interested in anyone except for 1. 5) I am a guy, who will do better after a fall. 6) I like to make up excuses a lot. Random... 0 comments ( @ 10:38 PM ) It started out like this, we decided to go running, so we went running, then she wanted to go see my friend's house, so we ran pass it, then she said might as well run down to rail mall, so okay, when we reached rail mall she wanted to cross the road at the light whilst i said i wanted to cross at the bridge, so i crossed at the bridge, and left my sister to go on running to the lights,i thought she would catch up with me so i just continued on running, when i reached my friend's place again, i wondered where she was as i couldn't see her anymore, so i decided to wait, and wait, and wait somemore, then i got worried, so i ran back abit, i couldn't find her, so i ran to the nearest petrol station and asked if i could make a call, and so i did, but i can't remember my friends number and in any case, apparently the phone was off or somthing, so i ran on back home, like.. sprint, damn far okay, and all along the way i was thinking what horrible things could've happened to my sister. And lo and behold, she was at home when i got home... apparently she was running no he opposite side of the road... WTH 0 comments Sunday, January 25, 2009 ( @ 10:41 PM ) But other than that, the performance at Thomson Plaza was okay. After which a few of us went to KAP to chill and chat about CO stuff. There's this J1 girl who's learning a lot of bad stuff from ken, if she sees this, she better know what a bad influence ken kor-kor is! TSK! And it's not a bloody scandal la wth. Ken Ho, please go check up a dictionary for the meaning of SCANDAL. Anyway, yesterday yuls didn't come for sectionals, so it was SELF-sectionals, and so i tried to carry on the tanbo tradition, but kena owned by teacher twice! Lol, i even tried to get yawen into my group but kena owned badly by SGQ as he spotted her moving the guzheng back into the case, lol... EPIC PHAIL! Today wasn't really eventful also, just went to Aunty Sally's place to help her fix up Skype so she could speak to her daughter via webcam when she is in Aussie studying. Erm, didn't get anything much out of it except time gone, but not wasted la. The days are counting down till the end of this month and nothing has changed... salvation is here 0 comments Friday, January 23, 2009 ( @ 6:26 PM ) Anyway, saw vivian at JP yesterday while going to FCC, her hair was... RED! I was like, whoa, that's abit L*AN right? Lol, but it was really nice seeing her. CO was so-so. I can't believe alot of things though, quite appalling. Today was AC celebrations which was quite fun, didn't really "feel" the music today, not sure why though, sorry if i wasn't playing my best, just didn't really feel like playing. Post celebration was fun though, the singing of the CNY songs were priceless, when you didn't know the lyrics, just go "la la la la bla bla bla ya ya ya" and clap along... priceless... Went out to eat lunch with irvin mike and jake, went to holland V , on the way we met Rayner Max and Ben lee, decided to lunch together, after lunch CRAPPED for the rest of the afternoon, talking about the good ol' days in our secondary schools and talking about relationships yada yada. Had a really good laugh over super stupid things. OH i forgot to mention about new CO juniors! Since i should talk about them and in turn one will talk about me :) lol. KK, so first up! Jeanette: Let's see, i've known her since she was a small girl! Okay maybe not small, since i was Sec 3, that makes her Sec 2 at that time, we met during music camp, i must say the things that brought us together were really really funny. I remember when i was Sec 4 i signed up for the music camp again, but then i decided not to go for the audition, then Mr Eio scolded me for not telling him and not doing anything about it, so he made me and a few others rush down to CCAB and apologize to the people there, it was really funny, cos since i had practiced the audition piece already, i decided.. what the heck, since i'm here might as well do it, but i was dripping wet, so no one would lend me their ruan (it was raining) then i asked jeanette, and i used her ruan. I didn't expect to get in, but lo and behold... i got in! But i declined the offer haha, so yeah, things kinda started from there, then slowly slowly, then now in ACJC. So yes, great player too, good habits. Jeremy: K this guy, i've known since Sec 2, he started out as a Da Ruan player i believe, after me. If i remember correctly he was quite quiet and all, and it was kinda hard to get him to open up, but eventually he did la, so its quite good. Events like SYF and Japan Trip brought us closer as Senior-Junior. Yawen: This girl arh, damn bimbo one leh, ok joking. Haha, first impression was that she was very quiet and all, but i guess we all assume that, but in time i'm sure in time she'll get used to the AC life and enjoy it! Very pro guzheng player too! Invaluable asset as they say. LOL, or precious resource eh? Jarroll/Jerroll/Jerol/Jarol: Sorry, i have NO IDEA how to spell his name, which is quite weird cos i'm usually good with names, well.. First impression of him was like Yawen, quiet... But after one time of talking to him while waiting for dad (he was waiting for his dad too) he's actually quite a fun guy and not all that indifferent! oh and he plays the ZYS QiaoHui: K this girl, i THINK she's hyper, first impression i got of her was that she is a very happy-go-lucky girl, but i've yet to know her better so we'll see. Anyway she's elliots haha. She reminds me of someone very happy too! but of course no one can replicate that. she plays ZYS COCOCOCOCOCOCO SOLOSOLOSOLOSOLO HUOBAJIEZHIYE 0 comments Wednesday, January 21, 2009 ( @ 5:20 AM ) Watched Spirited Away for chinese lesson yesterday, i never really liked that show even though i have watched it like... 5 times? The characters freak me out, and i never really got the storyline, but this time i shall try to understand it. The wave of emo-ness has passed, hopefully. It's only triggered by one thing it seems, and it can only be alleviated by the exact same thing, ironic. solo solo solo 0 comments Monday, January 19, 2009 ( @ 11:15 PM ) Woot! 3 posts in one evening! 0 comments ( @ 9:45 PM ) It's time to move on, but yet time does not seem to move. Or at least my mind and heart do not want to believe that time is moving on, I say move on, but my body won't listen. Deep down inside i know it cannot be, but up on the surface, I cannot seem to stop hoping. Am i so caught in this? In reality time has passed, but in my perceived reality nothing has changed, i tell myself what's gone is gone, there can be no taking back, the promises i made, the things i did, all done, never to be taken back, there is no point back there but to move on, still i can't help but to think back. Am i so caught in this? Behind the facade of smiles, therein lies the real you, this i can tell because no one can be like that and not have any problems of their own. Even I might be your problem, but i still wish you'd tell me. Even though i know it will not be like last time, i still hope. Am i so caught in this? There are so many things i want to say, so many things i want to do, but they will have to wait. What is it i see? Why is it so hard to let go? zomg damn emo... snap out of it lukas! 0 comments ( @ 9:19 PM ) Kay anyway, i'm doing duet with jeanette on saturday! Yay! at least i don't have to do solo anymore. School today was hell tiring, first up there was Mass PE, which was quite tough, but i didn't feel tired at the end, just abit sweaty and dirty, or rather... VERY sweaty and dirty. School was pretty short today, i think i shall make monday my "stay back and study" day! And so, life today has been pretty boring, and sucky as well. bleh~ 0 comments Sunday, January 18, 2009 ( @ 8:53 PM ) 0 comments Saturday, January 17, 2009 ( @ 10:50 PM ) Okay then... On to today! This morning I ran at the school track, whilst i was running, i was thinking to myself.. "should i run in a marathon?" the thought was really like, in my head the whole time i was running, i mean... if i'm going to run to lose weight, why not just throw in an extra goal as well? And not say my family is totally stagnant as well, my dad used to be a cross country runner, and my sis ran the full marathon like, 3 times already? and several half marathons here and there, so i think i'll add a "run a half marathon" onto my to-do list. CO today was interesting, basically cos there were new J1's today, but we didn't get to see them audition cos tsl didn't allow, but heck.. anyway, there are a few girls here and there, and some guys (majority from barker) but i think competition is going to be tough between them, and i seriously hope i get some ZR juniors also. CO nowadays is slowly becoming a chore for me, as in... my interest in ACCO is slowly dying out, the reasons for going are becoming less and less. And although my interest in ACCO is fading, my passion for ruan on the other hand is growing, and i'm going to start lessons with a really pro laoshi soon, and i intend to get a DIP grade and join NAC in 2 years time. and tonight you can't sleep at all 0 comments Friday, January 16, 2009 ( @ 10:40 PM ) For dinner had 3 piece chicken meal! (which is ultimate sin, i can't believe i actually ate that). Then after the outing with the old CO gang, headed on home. Now this is where it's interesting. I think, or rather, at LEAST something happened... I went to the nearby petrol station, and tried to buy alcohol, it was this vodka thingy which was green in color (lime flavour) but of course i didn't buy it cos it was so ex. I just brought it to the counter and the aunty said i couldn't buy cos i was in school uniform :( but nvm, now i know i CAN buy, just not in school uniform. Just a word of advice for you guys out there eh? Don't buy in school uniform even though you're 18. And as for TODAY, today was supposed to be one of my shorter days la, and i had planned to go out with my friend, but then the blardy economics lesson ate up like, 2 hours more of my time! And so it was called off la basically. Maybe monday can since i end early again. School was really quite fun today, i think i'm picking up more on my chemistry and economics. So hopefully this year will be a good year for me. 0 comments Thursday, January 15, 2009 ( @ 11:19 PM ) Anyway, today was... tell you tomorrow, do work first... 0 comments ( @ 12:13 PM ) 0 comments Wednesday, January 14, 2009 ( @ 10:52 PM ) As for how the supplementary papers went, erm... They were okay la, i felt the same way after the papers as i did after promos, so yeah. Haha Anyway, school so far has been.. weird. And i'm dying to go do something other than study. And i have assignments to hand up. NUUUUUUuuuuuuuuu!!!! Looking forward to meeting a friend tho, she came back quite some time ago, but i resisted meeting up cos my supplementary papers were around. So yea, one of the things on my "to-do" list. Um, OH! And i'm starting lessons soon, i'm not sure when though, but the Laoshi said she'll call me back. yay! And so chummies, my life is still quite boring, hopefully something interesting will pop up soon. Or rather, interesting things HAVE happened, but they're too sensitive to be posted on my blog, so yeah... LOL 0 comments Sunday, January 11, 2009 ( @ 5:19 PM ) On another note, this morning's centralized teaching by Adriel was pretty funny, abit erm... coarse? i should say? but nonetheless we got his message about why are we christian. On yet another note, remember my last blog post? Some people said it was quite deep, sorry luh, i was feeling pretty down yesterday, not sure why though. Anyway, as i was saying, my last post also refers to a special someone, someone all of us know, it is none other than God, yes God. Do you people realize that when you are in church, you are a different person? And that applies to me as well, there are some people i know who are REALLY REALLY DIFFERENT from who they are in life as compared to who they are in church. But as for me, i'm slowly changing to the person i am in church, and this person in church, you can see it when i'm not in church as well, and this.. is because i love God, and therefore i am becoming who i am toward Him to everyone else. I hope we all can be like that, and not conform to the people around us, whether they're good friends or not, we have to remain steadfast in what we believe in and what we want to become eventually. There are 2 groups of people i want to talk about today. One group, is people who go to church and act differently from who they are in real life, and this i know because they go to my church, as well as my school (JC and Secondary). In this category there is also me, i admit i WAS once a member of this group, but i'm getting out of it, i am becoming who God wants me to be. To the rest, they are still the same, and every time i see the difference, i feel that they're just cheating themselves only. The other group of people, are the people that put on a happy face so much, that one would think they have a much deeper side to them, just recently i discovered one of my friends like that, and it really kills me to know that she is SUCH A HAPPY PERSON in real life, but the personal problems that she is facing is just so downright awful i feel depressed just thinking about it, it really saddens me. Another friend i know, she is so happy, so happy happy happy all the time, it seems as if nothing could go wrong in her life, she seems to be the perfect representation of happiness, but i can't help but get the feeling that something is very wrong with her, like... she could be a volcano waiting to explode, the thing she doesn't know is, that its better to open up, you have to get these problems out, it's the only way, do not put up a front, do not keep it to yourself, this is what friends are for... 0 comments Saturday, January 10, 2009 ( @ 10:15 PM ) Not only for what you are, But for what I am When I am with you. I love you, Not only for what You have made of yourself, But for what You are making of me. I love you For the part of me That you bring out; I love you For putting your hand Into my heaped-up heart And passing over All the foolish, weak things That you can’t help Dimly seeing there, And for drawing out Into the light All the beautiful belongings That no one else had looked Quite far enough to find. I love you because you Are helping me to make Of the lumber of my life Not a tavern But a temple; Out of the works Of my every day Not a reproach But a song. I love you Because you have done More than any creed Could have done To make me good And more than any fate Could have done To make me happy. You have done it Without a touch, Without a word, Without a sign. You have done it By being yourself. Perhaps that is what Being a friend means, After all.” -Roy Croft WOW okay, this is simply WOW, when i first saw the first paragraph on a TV advertisement, i was like, "that's deep man". Then when i went online to search for the quote, lo and behold, i found this whole chunk. But yeah, i think it's really really sweet that this guy could come up with this, and probably for the woman he loved. That led me to think, that it applies somewhat to me, after so long, i should've realized it, but only after did i finally see it. That the person I like so much, possibly even love, is not because of who she is, but because of who i am when i am around her. And so, i shall say this now... "The person I want to be in life, is the person I am when I am with you. And this person, only you can bring out. I do not only love you for who you are, but also for the person you make me into." Okay, so... to sum up the week, it was basically "run, gym, swim, ruan, sleep, eat, STUDY STUDY STUDY".. I'm getting sick of this life, it kinda sucks to know that you're going to school to study, and you're going to be the only one there. I've been to school so damn often that i've practically become friends with the cleaners! Not that i'm complaining, (they help me look after my stuff) but like, it just sucks to know, that there are like, 50+ advance cases, and I could probably be the only one who gives a damn about it, and even then i still think i'm going to flunk but see how, maybe SSP is not such a bad thing. I feel like i've wasted a whole chunk of my holidays in school, sure i've made some great friends, but like... hais, idk... I think i'm going to fail my supps, wish me all the best! 0 comments Sunday, January 04, 2009 ( @ 5:59 PM ) The New Year so far has been uneventful, my dad's birthday passed but it felt like it didn't, and we're only celebrating today so yeah... Um, I might be taking Ruan lessons this year after my supplementary papers, most likely i will la, i think it was about time i did something about my music. Anyway, i think i know what i'm going to blog about! I shall wrap up last year! Okay, so... This year has been one heck of a year no doubt, with ups and downs, and EMOTIONAL ups and downs as well, but nonetheless i look back at 2008 and think, "this is definitely one of the better years in my life" The fun i had ACJC, and the studying I put in, definitely complements each other and ACJC truly is a school with the right amount of study and fun. Orientation was a blast, and i'm sure any batch after me will have equal if not more fun than I had. also, the studying during the holidays leading up to the promos, all that studying after school definitely was fun in certain ways as well, also not to mention making alot alot alot of friends in the process. And my class, 1SB8, is the ultimate class in ACJC, 1 girl, 15 guys, but even then, she was still easy going and a great classmate nonetheless. With half the class or more being from an all-guys secondary school, we got together well and eventually developed a fetish for waterpolo and ended up playing waterpolo for every PE lesson towards the end of the year, AND even after PE we still played, awesome! I must say that 2008 i really put in alot of time and energy into studying, but something was not right, i guess the effort was not there, even though i had tuition at unearthly hours (eg. 4am, 5am), all that doesn't mean anything if there isn't the effort, and I think my problem was just that, and it cost me, in the end i only advanced to J2, not promote, and so i have to pay by sitting for supplementary exams next week, but that's okay, i can solemnly say that this december holidays was one of the best i've had, at least all my time was spent doing something productive, either studying or exercising. So that's it for the academic aspect of 2008. I shall now talk about my christian walk. In terms of spirituality, 2008 also held its ups and downs, there were times when i got on a spiritual high, there were times when i was so low on faith that i would just "throw" Him aside. Going to ACJC was definitely a good choice in terms of spirituality, with events like Worship under the Stars and Passion AC, also.. 2008 was the first year that i attended fusion! I wanted to go for FOP, but yeah, you know how it's like... Anyway, i will admit that i have done things that i'm not proud of, and definitely not pleasing to God's eyes, but repentance is all in the package and even now i'm still repenting, but sometimes i just wonder whether i'm doing it right. I wouldn't know. Relationship wise, hoo-boy... As every guy in ACJC is bound to do, i also fell for a girl, not one, but two, but the second one made me see things about myself abit clearer. I guess that's the problem with co-ed institutions eh? Haha, relationships -.-" Anyway, on a side note, being with you made me realize one thing, that i enjoy being with you, there's no need to ask who this is, it's pretty obvious... AND SO...... This is 2008! 2009 is going to be a blast, i can just feel it, prelims and A levels! Can't get any better man... 0 comments Thursday, January 01, 2009 ( @ 10:36 PM ) So, yesterday started out quite nicely, going to gym with my friends and watching a movie, followed by dinner with my small group (which was exceptionally small), then after dinner we went for watch night, at this point in time i was quite worried as to how i was going to get home, walking was an option, but i never really considered it. So, during watch night, apart from the VERY occasional distractions by my friends and other people in the Hall, i managed to listen to the sermon somewhat. After the watch night service, there was post-watch night worship which i stayed for abit, but left soon after. Then i went down to the SMU bus stop hoping to find a bus to get me home (since some people said that the transit system would be extended), but lo and behold, no bus that passed my house operated anymore, so i trudged on down to sim lim square hoping to find more buses, but unfortunately, there was none, and no night rider. So i decided to walk my ass home, at that time i think it was 1.30AM already, and i made my way down to little india MRT station, over there i found a bus stop which had the night rider service and it went to bukit timah market, so i thought i might as well wait for it, but the average waiting time was 40mins, so i just hung arounf there, contemplating whether or not to take cab or wait for the bus, by the time i reached a decision, 30mins had passed and i decided to just wait for the bus. so the bus came, but didn't stop for anyone as it was too crowded, wth man, another 40mins, you gotta be kidding right? So i told myself i'd take a cab, just then my mum called to ask where i was, and i explained the situation, but instead of getting sympathy, i got a scolding instead, and how the cabs would charge me ever so extravagantly. And, feeling pissed, i just walked home, walk-walk-walk-walk. The walk was killer la, a total of 14km (according to streetdirectory.com) was covered, and a total of 3hours traveling time was spent, i think 3 hours is definitely worth 20bucks, and so, if you guys calculate properly, i left church around 1245AM, i got home at 3.45AM. Closer to 4AM actually, and i walked all the bloody way from Church (at YMCA) to Home (MGS there). In the wee hours of the new year morning. What a way to go man. The only consolation i gave myself was that the Year could not and WOULD not get worse than this. But the walk wasn't so bad, i had a few friends keep me company, though not beside my, but technologically beside me smsing me. Thanks to Ms India and mingz for listening to me bitch, and jia and choo for keeping me company. Well, this was probably only the second worst thing that happened last night. The worst thing well, i can't really say it, but it was because of that that it would've made the cab fare worth it and i wouldn't have minded paying if that did not happen, but it did and so... all the pain and all in my feet. screw it man. I was actually prepared this time somemore, i spent so much time thinking about it, but i guess the only good thing is that the other party is oblivious to it, i'll just leave it at that. And so i slept this morning at 4AM, woke up at around 11AM, went for lunch, got home, slept somemore, woke up for dinner, came back, napped abit, and here i am. I'm still kinda disappointed that i didn't get to do what i had planned to do, really put me down. but who cares? Nobody. 0 comments |